Manic Kitty

Well the job is still going great, I'm feeling a bit sore because for the past couple of days we've been doing Physical Intervention, and Restraint techniques. After a year of sitting at a desk all day my body is complaining about having to use muscles again, even for the most gently exercises. It's been interesting, I just hope I won't have to use it.
Tomorrow I'm going visiting the new home where I will be based. I'm a bit nervous as no-one I've spoken to so far has been able to tell me much about the clients, I'm hoping that means they're all nice and quiet as it's always the harder ones that you remember.

I've learnt, and confirmed a few things about myself too this past week. First that this is definitely the job for me. I knew that already, but it's nice to be reminded. On Tuesday evening I was sat at the PC with a big grin and feeling so relaxed, all the tension on the past year had vanished. Also I've been coming home at the end of the day (or early afternoon) and I have the energy and enthusiasm to do something other than fall asleep on the sofa.

It's also been interesting because I can see the changes in my attitude. When I was working for Chess I was always the quiet girl in the corner. Never spoke up, kept my head down and got on with the job. I couldn't do that as much at Atlantic because there were so few of us, but I doubt any of them would have considered me confident or outgoing. I was valued in the jobs, and I was asked my opinion, but I rarely spoke up.
However this past week I've been one of the more outspoken members of the group. I've even had to force myself to keep quiet to try to encourage others to speak. It's all because I'm confident in my skills and knowledge, and I care about getting it right, and helping others to get it right.
One of the managers at Atlantic said I wouldn't make a good manager because I was too quiet, but this last week I can see I could be a good manager in this job because I have the confidence. I can even imagine going on to do further study in topics then becoming a Trainer. Which would mean doing that most scary of things. "Standing up and talking to a group". Normally it terrifies me, but I've done it so often this week without even batting an eyelid.

So in conclusion. I'm happy. Hurrah!
I've got a cold though. Boo hiss!